in my efforts to accurately inform future intimate partners.

hi,

i will be visiting dr. lerner, my primary care physician,
at the end of july.

any information that you and/or your medical
providers are able to provide him about your std
history would be extremely useful in my efforts
to accurately inform future intimate partners
regarding my exposure to sexually transmitted diseases.

dr. lerner's contact information is below.  he is bound
by HIPAA, which protects your confidentiality.  i have
also included a link which gives an overview of the
regulations and i'm sure dr. lerner would be able to answer
any questions you might have.

with kind regards and love always, me


Barron Lerner MD, PhD
Bellevue Hospital Center

C&D Building #230
462 1st Avenue
NY NY 10016
212 562 6674

Glad to hear from you especially after what I believe was a spurious report.

Thankyou! Glad to hear from you especially after what I believe was a spurious report just now that your therapist had written to say you had had a manic episode yesterday. I told her you looked fine to me and charmed that elderly woman at the bar.
:)

How are you experiencing this?

I wanted to reach out and see how you are doing. I am out of the area and don't have cell service. I will be out all next week but I can email. I have gotten a few concerning emails from people in Your care team and I am really concerned, as it sounds like things are getting intense out there for you. How are you experiencing this? Does it seem like the risk is starting to outweigh the reward? Does it make sense for you to go back on medication and work towards creating a new support system and trying again when things in Your life get more settled? I wish I was there to help and I would urge you to contact Dr Atim again to discuss this in  More detail but please let me know your thoughts on this. It seems like every red flag that you mentioned has come up and I am worried for you.

Steve

Yes i did call Dr. Dawson on your behalf.

HL,

    You are a good man HL and we all love you that is why we are concerned. I am your brother for life. I have always been honestly with you in life, love and everything in between.
    There is nothing to be ashamed about. This game we call life is not easy, but having family that cares makes it a little easier.
    Yes i did call Dr. Dawson on your behalf. I have nothing to hid. It was done out of love and support.

I DO NOT WANT TO BE NOTIFIED ABOUT ANY OF THOSE NEGATIVE OUTCOMES.

Dear friend,

I'm writing an IMPORTANT message:

When I was living in NY, we always had a conversation about the possibility of you getting sick. You are in a manic episode.

You gave me authorization to take you to the hospital if needed. I am not there to fulfill this commitment and make your wish done.

As a responsable patient and mature adult I am asking you to CHECK IN AT THE HOSPITAL VOLUNTARILY.

Being things are they are right now the manic episode has escalated to risky point, I am concern because it might lead to:
-involuntary hospitalization,
-problems with the police
-or a "visit" to Rickers.

I DO NOT WANT TO BE NOTIFIED ABOUT ANY OF THOSE NEGATIVE OUTCOMES.

PLEASE DO THE RIGHT THING.
Check in: voluntarily at the hospital of your preference.

If you want any assistance contact Steve and he will help you.

Your friend,

#takecourage
#D2L

9. Taking about people not liking you because you are black.

HL,

I would like to speak to you. You know I love you like a brother , however I do not like how you are acting and I believe you have to get back on your Meds.
For now I do not want you at the clubhouse or Schillers.

1. You are getting very aggressive.
2. You are looking for a fight.
3. You embarrassed me with Jenn the other night.
4. You embarrassed me last night at my meeting.
5. You almost had a fight at Schillers the other night and if I was not there you would have.
6. You were not making sense last night at Schiller's and you were speaking crazy to Dom.
7. You are preaching your believes on people and being aggressive doing it.
8. You got nasty with Briana.
9. Taking about people not liking you because you are black.

Let me know when you want to meet to speak.
We can meet at a coffee shop later today.
I am speaking to you man to man and not reaching out to your doctor.
You need to go back on your Meds.

i think the email from your friend tom was not unreasonable.

hi

i am up writing this because i'm worried about you.    i too have noticed changes that seem to make it clearer that you are getting 'elevated'.....   you know that i have a broader view than many about what constitutes 'mental illness' and what might be described as a heightened creative state, but given what i know of your long-term story i think i have to tell you when i see signs of things that might be detrimental to your well being.

i think the email from your friend tom was not unreasonable, he was very specific and not attacking you personally, rather listing things that have happened.  you have also described to me several 'encounters' in the last few weeks that involve increasing and inappropriate levels of aggression.   i really don't think the thing on the bus would have happened even a month ago.  

the main thing that tells me something is amiss is that during our MUCH TREASURED conversations it really feels like you are less and less able to listen well and more and more led by needing to do all the talking, sometimes off topic (even by my extremely meandering standards ;-) ).

this is not the person i know and love, who is pretty much the best listener i have ever met.  well, it is of course, deep down, in your good good heart.  but i just wanted to check in with you about the changes i see because i care very much about your well being.

i am truly sorry if my actions have contributed to or triggered distress in any way.  i am so so sorry if i let you down or have made you feel bad.

i hope we can talk this weekend.  

much much much love