Dear Dave,

Your note brought tears to my eyes - literally. I’m really cheering for you and hope you succeed in your ambitious endeavors. Above all, let’s stay in touch!

and lo and behold, there she was standing before me.

was playing on first ave yesterday in front of Polish GI Delicatessen…along comes a little girl with her seemingly harried mom…precocious little thing, didn’t think she’d stop but she told her mom she wanted to and lo and behold, there she was standing before me. asked me what i was playing but i really couldn’t hear the “what”…it kind of sounded like “why”…but anyway i asked her if she knew any songs and she requested abcdefghijk el-emeno-p qrstuvwxyz…forgot that abc’s are recited to a melody…my daughter is 22 so it’s been a while…so i said hey, ho, let’s go…started it out and played it by ear…i think i only made one mistake…pretty happy about that because it shows my ear is coming along…then she requested twinkle twinkle little star…we rocked that with no mistakes…then little precocious girl walked south, disappearing into the late afternoon sun…

03/21/12

i don't have anything remotely resembling a day job. i've been doing field research for the last four years while developing a new theory of the universe. also have been working hard on my guitar-playing and musical expression.

i've been fairly successful in setting up a johnny appleseed existence, relying on the kindness of friends & strangers for a meal and a place to lay my head. i try to bring news from neighboring villages, a good story or two, and a nursery that bears fruit every once in a while. :)

whats up bro

I just want to let you know that everything is all right - i am meeting Mark tommrow and will work out presentation with other Angels I think I was overbaring you with my Magical Experience- be well

think about how you might have contributed to what you perceived as NYC's toxicity.

Dear David,

I wanted to make a couple of observation about yesterday’s text messages.

Going back to DC, to your family, Kaisha, Pam and leaving the LES for a while was a good idea. You needed to get away from NYC, put some distance to gain perspective on the events that you reviewed the last day I saw you.

I disagree with you that NYC is toxic for nascent creators like you. Visionaries struggle all the time getting others to understand and accept their ideas and that’s part of the fun of being a visionary. And it takes a strong self to manage rejection which is a big part of the life of a visionary. But the toxicity you described while reviewing your life in NYC was not about your ideas but about your behavior.

You had a passionate relationship with Joel, JJ and many others and you expected a lot from them. You told me several times that you have high expectations of those you love.

But what about your expectations of yourself with respect to the people you love?

You love JJ but when he asked you to leave, you stayed and played music outside his store. You disrespected him and respect is one face of love. When your health advisor didn’t come to visit you at the hospital, you felt abandoned (and rightly so) and you came back to the bar and blasted her. But you didn’t give her a chance to explain herself. I bet her explanations would have been lame, but if you love her, you could have listened and help her realize that as a health advisor she had some work to do.

You expect unconditional love from JJ, Joel and others but that’s not realistic or fair to anyone, including you.

I know ideas are important to you but so is love. You love passionately.Take some time to think about your relationships in NYC and think about how you might have contributed to what you perceived as NYC's toxicity.

Your heart is generous and your mind is gorgeous. Make something beautiful of your life.

With love and admiration...

I miss both of you!
come see me sometime!
Kim/ I read your Balasia review whenever I’m feeling down… it really inspires me to keep going AND Hippie what can I say, during Balasia days your daily visits fueled my creativity and life…

you are either trying to be very cool or deep or you are cool and deep. In either case, you are way too cool for me.

Despite the fact you are terribly good looking, rich and living in the greatest city, it will never work out. One you are too far away. New York is great! You are lucky you can live there. But it is a few states away and I hardly ever get there. Two, people with money never advertise it. So therefore, you are not to be trusted. HA Or you are a braggart. In either case, despite how much money you have, or don’t have, it isn’t attractive. And I am never impressed with money anyway. Three, despite how I like you quoted CAKE lyrics and Hungarian Poerty, you are either trying to be very cool or deep or you are cool and deep. In either case, you are way too cool for me. I think despite how I can be witty and occassionally amiable, you will be quickly bored with me. I am just not that cool…. and I only appreciate “deepness.” And lastly, you are way too cute for me. I have curves. And cute cool, deep, possibly rich guys, never go for the nerdy smart girl in school, who lives on the other side of the tracks. Didn’t you even SEE Pretty In Pink?? John Hughes life lessons. And this redhead would always end up dating Ducky.

So these are the reasons, and there are many, why you are way too cool for my school, or Skool.

Have a wonderful life.