not from a self-help book - just from paying attention.

Some things I have come to over time... Be true. Know the value of authenticity. Lead with your heart. Move through the world with the ease of someone who isn't always looking for something more or better, because it's not where you think it is. (not from a self-help book - just from paying attention.)

I try to remember that I have no idea what most people around me are going through and start from a place of knowing I don't know. It creates a softness where there could have been disapproval or annoyance or hard edges.

I'd like to meet someone that wants to be an active participant in a relationship of our own devising!

I've recently gotten into relationship anarchy, I think a lot of the rules we have about relationships are baseless and potentially harmful. I'd like to meet someone who is a good listener, and a good talker, that wants to be an active participant in a relationship of our own devising! That's not all going to happen on the first date or anything, just something to be aware of.

Except most women including me connect intimacy with their heart.

hi, you have a beautiful, beautiful profile, i especially like your self-summary.  beautifully written and succinctly stated. :)

with kind regards and love always, hippie lou

Yesterday - 8:20pm
Hi, thanks. I liked your profile as well. The answers on your summary were kind of hippie like..lol. I hope you don't smoke tobacco.

Yesterday - 8:59pm
thanking you very much for your kind words.  i do smoke tobacco, it's something very recent and i don't intend to keep it up for very long.  but i understand having a strong dislike for it; my wife smoked and it bothered me a lot for our entire (19) year marriage.  i often wondered what i was thinking when i was dating her; i guess it wasn't as important then.

i want to be up front as well - i think your profile is clear about you looking for a long-term partner, which i totally respect and understand.  i take my intimate relationships very seriously, and look for deep and wide-ranging connections, but also allow myself the freedom to follow intimacy and love wherever and whenever it presents itself in my life.  for me, it is a necessary condition for sustained health and well-being.  i realize this is not in concert with the preferences of many women on this site, and also in the world as we know it, so i like to be up front about it with those i correspond with so as to minimize the possibility of a misunderstanding.

having said that, you seem like someone i would really like to get to know, but understand if the aforementioned is a deal-breaker.

with kind regards and love always, hippie lou

Yesterday - 9:15pm
Wow, okay, let me gather my thoughts... If you can't be with the one you love, love the one your with? That's pretty much how most guys are, nothing new. Except most women including me connect intimacy with their heart then can and do get hurt!

Today - 1:48am
i realize this approach is not in concert with the preferences of many women on this site, and also in the world as we know it.  i'm not in this life to hurt anyone, it's the last thing i would ever want to do.

I got lost in the confusion of Bipolar I disorder.

Dear David,

I want to apologize for the 'tone' of my conversation last night.

I got lost in the confusion of Bipolar I disorder and forgot that the core of your humanity is love, light & kindness:  a beautiful, amazing man.

A virágnak megtiltani nem lehet.

You cannot bid the flower not bloom; it thrives
When, on mild zephyrs’ wings, the spring arrives.
A girl is spring, her love a scented flower,
Which buds and blooms ’neath balmy air and shower.

When first I saw thee, dear, I fell in love
With thy fair soul the tender charm thereof.
With that soul’s beauty, which I ever see
Reflected in thine eyes bewitchingly.

The question rises sometimes in my breast —
Shall I, or others by thy love be blessed?
These thoughts pursue each other in my mind,
As sun rays’ clouds, when blows the autumn wind.

Knew I another waited thy embrace,
Could kiss the milk and roses of thy face,
My broken heart I far away would bear,
Or end in death the depth of my despair.

Shine down on me, O star, so born to bless!
And light the dreary night of my distress!
O my heart’s pearl! if thou can’st love me, love,
And blessing shall be thine from God above.

Mental illness, physical injuries... all just symptoms of a wounded spirit.

From: Hippie Lou
Date: Thu, Jul 13, 2017 at 8:20 PM
Subject: Re: Love you <3
To: Gordon Peters

you speak to me, you speak for me brother.  with so much love always.  you are an inspiration to me and my guide every moment, truly. <3


On Thu, Jul 13, 2017 at 7:15 PM, Gordon Peters wrote:

Letting the disclaimers that placated the people I never wanted to please go... pleasing myself and those who really care about me in the process. I will live my life as a spiritual person, as a spiritual worker. It is always who I've been, always how I've been in community. I lived with a very profound spiritual wound for a long time... it almost killed me. It ravished my mind, my body... when spirit is wounded, mind and matter start to decay, become wounded themselves. Mental illness, physical injuries... all just symptoms of a wounded spirit... it is with a healed spirit that I will heal my mind and body... it is humbling myself before the divine energy of the universe that heals my spirit, that gives me a new life... new health.

I have never forgotten, and I will never forget my beloved niece Shanika.

February 6, 2017

David L. Webster
4002 12th Street
Long Island City, NY 11101

Your Honor,

I am writing in reference to Shanika Taylor in the matter before the court of custody of her sons A'Lonte and Ayden Taylor.

I am Shanika's uncle and have known her for her entire life.

I obtained a profound understanding of the quality of Shanika's character in 2011.  Up until that point in my life I had experienced nothing but success.  I had completed a Ph.D. at the University of Chicago, had established a thriving management consulting business serving pharmaceutical and biotechnology companies, and was raising my daughter with my wife Pam in a comfortable house in Nazareth, Pennsylvania.  My family and I had an idyllic life.

I started suffering from an undiagnosed illness in 2007 that ultimately turned my and my family's world upside down.  On January 8, 2011, our home in Nazareth was foreclosed.  We had nowhere to go.  None of my family members, including my parents and my three brothers and one sister, all of them of substantial means and with spacious accommodations, offered us any assistance.  Although some of my friends were supportive, none of them stepped forward to offer the three of us a place to stay.

Into the breach stepped Shanika.  Not wanting us to go into a homeless shelter, she generously offered me, my wife, and my daughter Kaisha a place in her apartment.  Shanika was critical to my family's ability to regroup and get on our feet again, and we are all thriving today due in large part to her generosity.  I cannot imagine where we would be without Shanika's empathy, her compassion, and her willingness to share her limited resources with a family in need.

I have never forgotten, and I will never forget my beloved niece Shanika.  I can attest to her character in this letter with words, but Shanika demonstrates her character every day with something far more important - deeds.  Despite our significant age difference, Shanika is a role model for me and I aspire every day to live up to her example of kindness and compassion, her example of sacrifice for others.

I have witnessed that same spirit of sacrifice and support countless times with her sons Zachariah, A'Lonte, and Ayden.  I have seen with my own eyes and felt with my own heart the love Shanika has for her children, and I have never witnessed any incidents of physical and emotional abuse.

In closing, I will say simply that I hold Shanika in my highest esteem.

With kind regards,

David L. Webster